When you attend college, you know it's a four year term, well, at least for those who aren't playing around. You know that once you start college, without a shadow of doubt, you're gonna graduate because it generally takes four years right? You also don't expect to have drama, unresolvable issues (as it appears), complicated lengthy term/research papers, late night studying, early morning classes, broken hearts, back stabbers, scams & fraud, jacked up credit or any of that right? BUT you do know that if ONLY, if ONLY, if ONLY, you can get through all of that, you already know you're going to successfully complete those four years and graduate right? In saying that, you know and you don't know certain things but you do know that in four years, all of those things will be things of the past and you're now on to seeing better days right? Yeah, better days! *sigh* More after the break.
Well what about those situations and other things that come in our life that we didn't expect, we didn't want to deal with, we want to give up on? What do we do then? I'm talking about careers, relationships, marriages, defiant children, back stabbing friends? I'm talking about all of that. What do you do then? Do you give up because you don't know if it's all, like college, will be over in four years or do you withstand the toughest time and get through it?
Some of you read my blog so you can run back to my family and tell them all kinds of foolishness, some of you read because you want to be inspired while others read because they just want to be nosey. All of your reasons are fine. I'm living for ME!!!! Just had to throw that in there because I'll get a call here and there from my grandmother or my mother saying, "what have you written on the Internet?" I wouldn't be surprised if I get a call about this. Keep visiting and reading because I get paid for this so thank you *takes bow* ;-)
Back to the regularly scheduled program below.
Many of you expect me to always be happy, happy, happy and more happy. Well, let me tell you a secret....I'm human! I bleed the same blood you bleed and I'm not always happy. Does that catch you by surprise? I say this because a few weeks ago, I was more upset than I could imagine and I said some things on Facebook, which was on that day, my way of venting. I had more comments than a little bit about "Delete this stuff," "You shouldn't say that on Facebook," "You are better than that," and so on and so forth. Blah, blah, blah.....Everyone deals with encounters differently. Don't expect me to be like you, I don't expect you to be like me. Tell me what Facebook is utilized for? Is it only suppose to be where people paint a picture to be who they really aren't? Did Mark Zuckerberg create rules for Facebook? Maybe I didn't get that memo. Send it to my email please, makeva.harold@gmail.com. Thank you in advance.
Anywho, I write you this evening to tell you whatever it is you're going through, trust God enough, have at least the faith of a mustard seed to know that he will bring you through. No, you don't know when change is gonna come BUT do you not know all the curve balls allow you to build a closer relationship with God? He longs for a relationship with all of us so he allows life to throw us curved balls, lemons and everything else to get our attention. I'm writing to you but I'm talking to myself. Over the past six months or so, I've been dealing with a lot, A LOT! I've never been a person to give up on anything but I never thought that I would be where I am today, dealing with situations and other things that I am dealing with today. Here I stand, praying, believing and having faith that God will work in my favor. Do I want to throw in the towel? All the time. YES! I'll come up with all these reasons as to why I need to let go of these situations and other things so I can be free, so I can live again, so I don't have any expectations of others, so I don't have to worry about disappointment, so I don't have to deal with heartache, so I don't have to have these thoughts. I know the devil tries to play tricks on my mind too so instead of acting on emotions and doing something I might regret later, I cry, I pray, I talk with close friends, I read the Bible along with a few other biblical books and I pray even more. It has never been in me to be a stubborn person, I'll even try that, being stubborn will help get over these situations and other things, is what I think.
All I'm trying to say is life is similar to college but without the four year time frame. I can be one day away from these situations and other things being resolved, I can be four years away, I can be ten years away. I can even be one hour away. I'll never know and that's why God wants us to trust in him and have faith in him. We can't put a time frame on what he has for us. We go through the motions to build strength, faith, wisdom, trust and more. I said it earlier and I'm saying it now, if the blessing is just as great as the struggle, I'm amazed! Faith is substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen. Hebrews 11:1
I'm learning to be patient, prayerful in ANY situation and understanding. It's tough and I can't say I won't go left sometimes because I feel that way often, I feel that way now but I have to stay motivated so I can, in turn, motivate you! :)
That's it!!! Peace and blessings! Thank you for reading.
