Situations and Other Things

When you attend college, you know it's a four year term, well, at least for those who aren't playing around. You know that once you start college, without a shadow of doubt, you're gonna graduate because it generally takes four years right? You also don't expect to have drama, unresolvable issues (as it appears), complicated lengthy term/research papers, late night studying, early morning classes, broken hearts, back stabbers, scams & fraud, jacked up credit or any of that right? BUT you do know that if ONLY, if ONLY, if ONLY, you can get through all of that, you already know you're going to successfully complete those four years and graduate right? In saying that, you know and you don't know certain things but you do know that in four years, all of those things will be things of the past and you're now on to seeing better days right? Yeah, better days! *sigh* More after the break.

Been Gone BUT I'm Back

Been gone for a while but I'm back. Sorry for the wait. (In Lil Wayne's voice). How have you been? I've been busy. I haven't mentioned it here but I'm sure most of you know. I opened a clothing boutique for women. Yay me! It's called M2 Boutique...pronounced M Squared. It's been a very busy few months for me. Clink the link to find out more of what's been going on.

Walking in the Dark

Have you ever felt as though you were walking in the dark? Meaning, traveling and unsure of your direction? When this happens, what do you do? I double check the address and my GPS to make sure I keyed in the correct address. In life, this is usually the case but what if you're unsure of the direction you should be going?

That's kinda how I feel right now. I mean, I understood some of the things God told me to do but then there are others that I'm really not sure about. For instance, I previously worked as a Juvenile Probation Officer for approximately three years, I left for three years. Now, I'm back. Initially, this was my assignment. Fresh out of college, it was my first professional job. I loved it. I met GREAT people. :) I also learned a lot. It made me realize that my passion was in the Social Work arena. I decided to leave for better pay and direct social work. The new job lasted eight months but that's neither here nor there.

During the course of the three years when I was away from my Probation job, I was finding my way, trying to learn how to run a business (full-time). Check it out: www.creativepartydesigning.com.  For the most part, I did a good job. What I didn't like was that the pay wasn't consistent. I was so consumed with getting consistent pay, I thought I was doing something wrong. I later realized that when you work for yourself, you have to put in 10x's the work you would if you were working for someone else. I was doing that BUT the money wasn't coming in the way I wanted. At one point, my condo went into foreclosure status. I still kept a smile, still paid my tithes and still told God "Thank you." I knew he had my back even though I was kinda nervous. God worked it out for me.....I kept my home and my mortgage is significantly lower than what it was.

I prayed and I prayed for a job because I got tired of not having a consistent paycheck while everyone around me was receiving just that. I mean, I made money and I was able to pay my bills but I got tired of the past due phone calls, payment arrangements and such. Soooo now I'm back at this job, consistent pay but my businesses are failing and I realize this job doesn't give two cents about me. They want the work done and that's it. My businesses are failing because I don't have the time to dedicate to them like I've had in the past. I have to focus on punching the clock for an agency that I will never reach a six figure salary because there's no room for advancement. Now my question stands, do I leave (again) or do I stay? That's my darkness.

I now realize that I'm just different (from those around me). Everyone around me is not like me. So what that they get a consistent paycheck and I don't?! I believe that's what their hearts desired but not mine. My heart desires more. My heart, as well as God, desires me to be great and to create that greatness for myself then help others strive for their greatness! He didn't tell me I would be sitting behind a desk, complaining everyday about how much I don't want to be back working there, being away from my children basically ALL DAY and...I can go on and on and on about how I don't want to be there but I won't.

I feel that I'm walking in the dark because I'm trying to understand what God is telling me to do. Truth of the matter is, God didn't tell me to go back to the job. I consistently prayed, cried and was sometimes upset with God about my financial situation. We must be careful what we pray for. God will definitely give us EXACTLY what we ask for and sometimes it's not even what he had in store. God's will for us is so much greater than our own. I guess we have to test him. This isn't the only thing I prayed for that I wish was easy to give back but I won't discuss that here, at least not in this topic. I'm sure it will come later down the line. When it's not God's plan to give us something and we keep asking for it and we're persistent, we get it just how it is. Not completely ready, kinda like a half baked cake. On the outside, it appears to be ready but on the inside, it's still gooey and sticky, it's still baking and it takes time to be completely done.

I tell myself everyday, God didn't desire this of me. He told me I would be great. I'm ambitious, I'm intelligent, I'm outgoing and I should do something with it! He told me me and HIM would take over the world together and we would be THAT power couple.

If you're hearing a message from the Lord, LISTEN. Just be quiet and LISTEN. He always speaks and he always knows what's best for all of us. I thought this was what he wanted me to do. I'm listening now. I'm just waiting on him to speak. I know this wasn't what he wanted for me, I'm just trying to clearly understand exactly what I need to do.

Are you walking in the dark?

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Happy Birthday Maquesta!

I want to give a birthday wish to my mom, Maquesta Harold. I love her to pieces. Thank you God for allowing her to see her 49th birthday! I love her! As a mother and daughter, we've been through a lot and thank God she's still around. I know there are some that no longer have their mom with them and I'm thankful that mine is still here and can share in all my life experiences; good and bad. Lord, please continue to bless her to see many more. Please watch over her and protect her from all harm.

My Reaping Season Is Near, I mean HERE!

My reaping season is near here. God promised me that if I walked upright, no good thing would he withhold from me. I have paid my tithes through good times and through bad times. Things are really turning around. I have constant reminders that keep me reminded about how far I've come and where I'm going. God has really been showing out in my life, so much that it has been unbelievable. I have big surprise that I would love to disclose now but it's too early.

I think everyone should try God out, he's the bomb.com. I've learned to put ALL my trust in him and only him and he has proven himself trustworthy. I talk to God all the time, we have conversations all the time. He's just all around awesome. We're in the first month of 2012 and God has done bigger things for me than what I wanted for myself. Talk about dreaming big, God was dreaming bigger than me. I have high expectations for myself and God gives me the power to obtain more and do more. I'm still pinching myself to see if it's really real. Then of course, as a human being, I get nervous saying okay God, I'm kinda scared because I don't feel that I can handle THAT just yet. You guys will know what THAT is in a few weeks. I keep telling myself, God told me I can have anything I ask for and more as long as I'm obedient and that I have been.

Point of this post: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5). He separates the "impossible" and makes it "I'm Possible." We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. (Phillippians 4:13) He's the best. Try him out and if you don't like him, the devil will always take you back. He's trying to win souls too. One of my favorite quotes, "The road is not the end of the road unless you fail to make the turn" -Unknown

Happy New Year!

Hello and Happy New Year! Yeah I know, it's January 3rd and not January 1st. My apologies for not greeting my fans on the 1st. I was busy lining up my year with tasks, goals and reflections from 2011.

With that being said, I would like to wish you all a Happy New Year!

No need for New Year resolutions. The time to start changing for the better is today and everyday. Strive for nothing but success. Let's do something this year to make last year jealous. No complaining, no procrastinating, no laziness. We don't have time for that. Let's grind it out. I have so much in store for you all and it takes hard work and dedication to succeed at what I have lined up. I strive to be an inspiration to myself, my children, my husband (those that don't know...I's married now!) and of course, you all....I love each and every one of yall.

-Makeva J.