Situations and Other Things

When you attend college, you know it's a four year term, well, at least for those who aren't playing around. You know that once you start college, without a shadow of doubt, you're gonna graduate because it generally takes four years right? You also don't expect to have drama, unresolvable issues (as it appears), complicated lengthy term/research papers, late night studying, early morning classes, broken hearts, back stabbers, scams & fraud, jacked up credit or any of that right? BUT you do know that if ONLY, if ONLY, if ONLY, you can get through all of that, you already know you're going to successfully complete those four years and graduate right? In saying that, you know and you don't know certain things but you do know that in four years, all of those things will be things of the past and you're now on to seeing better days right? Yeah, better days! *sigh* More after the break.

My Reaping Season Is Near, I mean HERE!

My reaping season is near here. God promised me that if I walked upright, no good thing would he withhold from me. I have paid my tithes through good times and through bad times. Things are really turning around. I have constant reminders that keep me reminded about how far I've come and where I'm going. God has really been showing out in my life, so much that it has been unbelievable. I have big surprise that I would love to disclose now but it's too early.

I think everyone should try God out, he's the bomb.com. I've learned to put ALL my trust in him and only him and he has proven himself trustworthy. I talk to God all the time, we have conversations all the time. He's just all around awesome. We're in the first month of 2012 and God has done bigger things for me than what I wanted for myself. Talk about dreaming big, God was dreaming bigger than me. I have high expectations for myself and God gives me the power to obtain more and do more. I'm still pinching myself to see if it's really real. Then of course, as a human being, I get nervous saying okay God, I'm kinda scared because I don't feel that I can handle THAT just yet. You guys will know what THAT is in a few weeks. I keep telling myself, God told me I can have anything I ask for and more as long as I'm obedient and that I have been.

Point of this post: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5). He separates the "impossible" and makes it "I'm Possible." We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. (Phillippians 4:13) He's the best. Try him out and if you don't like him, the devil will always take you back. He's trying to win souls too. One of my favorite quotes, "The road is not the end of the road unless you fail to make the turn" -Unknown

TRUST and whatever else

I hope you're not in a rush because this is going to be a long one. If you are, please visit my site when you really have time to sit, read and think. I want to hear from you so please leave your comments after you read. Ya'll knew I would eventually touch on this. I have to take a few steps back in order for you to understand what's going on now.

In 2006, I started dating this guy that I was "with" for about three years. At the third year, we continued to talk but it wasn't like it was prior to that. I was sooo in love with him. No one could've ever told me he wasn't going to be my husband. Someone should've continued to tell me that he wasn't going to be my husband because he always put so many other women before me. And I mean really, what would you expect a man to do when you allow him to do all those things to you. Note to Women: Men will do unto you whatever you allow them to do so know your worth and don't settle for anything less than you deserve. I finally cut all ties with him a few days ago. Okay, so we never made it official that we were a couple and I loved him so much. I knew he loved me too but his love came a few years after mine. I have never been jealous of anyone. Why?

Faith

Having faith takes a lot of courage. You really have to believe and trust in God that he will make a way when others (including you) believe that there is no way. I define faith as doing the impossible but believing God and knowing he will make it possible. If I have to say this everyday to make it through, I will say it: "Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen" Hebrews 11:1



I received this in an email today and it really touched my heart. "You should look at yourself as a pioneer. Things that you do today, will influence the lives of our future tomorrow!!! You are struggling now to give some kid 10 or 20 years from now the courage to." I sometimes need to hear encouraging words as well. I have days where I work so hard then other days I feel as though I'm not working hard enough. God is able to do all things so I will continue to believe and trust in him. I love the Lord with all my heart and soul. That is all!

Listening When He Speaks

For two years I've been struggling with something God told me to hang on to. It's not that I don't want to hang on to it, I'm just tired of waiting.

God gives everyone a message. It's up to you whether you listen or not. Speaking to you as well as myself, we all should listen when he speaks because he knows what's best. Matter of fact, he knows us better than we know ourselves. Over the past three years, I've grown more into God and I have a better relationship with him. We talk all the time. Every time I'm about to make a very important decision, I speak with him and ask is it the right thing to do. The decision I make is not always what he tells me. Sometimes I'm in denial and I want what I want so I'll do it anyway then say to myself, if it's a success then I know it's God, if it's not, it's still God, he's just telling me NO because that's not what he told me to do and I did it anyway. Though people on the outside looking in don't quite understand why I do certain things, it's not for you to understand. I've spoken with God and he has told me my next move. He has told me what I deserve, what I'm going to get and he's gonna give it all to me in his time. He also said that this isn't going to be easy but I'm giving it to you anyway because I know you can handle it. I can't tell you what he told me I'm getting because that's our secret ^_^ but I will tell you what he said it's gonna take to get there and this is for my readers too because he may have spoken to you about your own situation.

This particular day I cried, I cried and I cried. I prayed to God and laid everything on the table; feelings, questions and all. There are two things I want so bad and I work so hard to have them both. God has told me he's going to give them to me but I need to be patient. He's not going to give them to me when I want it because I'm not ready to have it and it's premature. He says all things need growth including me. Remember I spoke about tunnel vision? He confirmed that I'm in the tunnel, the toughest part of my life. Sometimes I go back on his word and say I doubt it's gonna happen. I think I'm psyching myself out because I want what I want so bad. Then God steps in again and confirms that I'm going to get it, just not yet and that I need to press forward. I've never been so confused about certain things in all the days of my little 26 year old life but God says it's on it's way. I know God works in mysterious ways so I'm sitting back wondering what is he gonna do to make these things happen for me. I don't know; all I know is he says it's gonna work. When I feel like it's not working or it's not going to work, I try to run away and my little confirmation runs me down and hits me smack dab in my face and...I smile again. Anyone that has a relationship with God, understands where I'm coming from and anyone that does not, you'll get it later. I go back and forth with God all the time about the message he gave me. Is it really gonna happen God? Why do I feel humiliated? He says you're suppose to feel humiliated, it humbles you. Then I'll say, I'm throwing in the towel, it ain't happening; I think I misheard the message. Then God steps in again and says, Child you are gonna get what you ask for, keep believing in me!!! Every time I have a negative thought and I feel like giving up or throwing in the towel, he always gives me my confirmation in a different way that this too shall pass and I'm gonna get all that I ask for plus more. I need to be obedient, live holy and lastly, listen when he speaks.