Love....When or how do you know it's real?

Love....makes me speechless....makes me wonder...makes me happy...makes me sad.

More on love...after the break.

HIM

So it's been a while since I've spoken to him. I've been wondering how he's been doing. I couldn't find it in myself to pick up the phone and call so I sent him an email the other day. He said he was doing well. I browsed his website yesterday and I am very proud of him and accomplishments. I still feel that together we can and sometimes we will still take over the world. I said to myself, "Self, this should be your man. Yall can take over the world with your ambitions together." Sometimes I feel that someday, somewhere, along this journey, we will meet up again and make up for all the time that has been lost. *sigh*

I. Miss. Him. I. Still. Love. Him. But. Deep. Down. Inside. I. Know. I. Cant. Love. Him. Anymore.

I'm feeling you Keri!

TRUST and whatever else

I hope you're not in a rush because this is going to be a long one. If you are, please visit my site when you really have time to sit, read and think. I want to hear from you so please leave your comments after you read. Ya'll knew I would eventually touch on this. I have to take a few steps back in order for you to understand what's going on now.

In 2006, I started dating this guy that I was "with" for about three years. At the third year, we continued to talk but it wasn't like it was prior to that. I was sooo in love with him. No one could've ever told me he wasn't going to be my husband. Someone should've continued to tell me that he wasn't going to be my husband because he always put so many other women before me. And I mean really, what would you expect a man to do when you allow him to do all those things to you. Note to Women: Men will do unto you whatever you allow them to do so know your worth and don't settle for anything less than you deserve. I finally cut all ties with him a few days ago. Okay, so we never made it official that we were a couple and I loved him so much. I knew he loved me too but his love came a few years after mine. I have never been jealous of anyone. Why?