I'm Gonna Make It

Soon and very soon I'll be where I want to be in life. I'll be able to stop robbing Peter to pay Paul. I'm overdrawing one bank account to cover personal expenses in another account. I'm diligently working to secure clients for CPD in order to expand my business, clients write bad checks, checks that I depend on to support my family. People on the outside looking in think I got it all together. Well, I don't have it all together. I'm human. I fall down too. I'm down now, not for long though. Wanna read more? I know you do. Click the button below.

Special Thanks

I would like to send out a heartfelt thank you to all those that have supported me along my journey thus far. I know sometimes you don't know it's the small things that you do for me that I really appreciate. Yesterday, I didn't have any money to eat at work and when one of my friends invited me to lunch and he paid, I was very appreciative. I said thank you about five times. I want you all to know that you touch me in different ways. Whether it has been giving me or lending me money, a donation to my foundation, a text telling me to read a certain Bible scripture, an email with a quote of the day, helping me upgrade my blog, a phone call to check on me, doing my hair for free, cutting my brother's hair for free, taking my brother to complete community service hours, referring my companies to other individuals, this truly means a lot to me. I can go on and on about the things you all have done for me. I can't say thank you enough.

I am so glad that God has blessed me with friends and family that really care and support me in all that I do. I know a lot of you also look up to me for motivation and inspiration but I need to hear it from others too. I've come a long way; however, I still have quite a ways to go. I know God is taking care of me. I'm always sowing seeds in others' lives so I know God is gonna give it all back to me 100 fold. No I don't do the things I do because I look for something in return, I do things because I find it in my heart to help people in any way that I can because God has continued to keep me. I'm glad you all see the bigger picture in my life and are helping me get where I'm going and are continuing to help me as I work my way up. Most of you helping me are also working your way up and we're building on each other. *Screaming* AHHHHH.....you all don't know how much you mean to me and how I appreciate all of you. You can hold me to this or you don't have to but I'm gonna continue being a blessing to you and when I blow up, I'm coming back for you so get ready. My blessings are gonna overtake me and it's gonna be more than I can receive so of course it's gonna overflow into your lives. Thank You! Thank You! Thank You and....I Love You all! Peace and Blessings be with you. :-)

Pursuit of Happyness...Either you're with me or you're not

I have this movie on DVD and I watched it a few years ago when I was still employed as a Juvenile Probation Officer. It came on TV this past weekend and I watched it again. (I'm an entrepreneur now) The feeling I had when I watched it a few years ago and the feeling I had when I watched it a few days ago was totally different. I could relate to what he was going through more than ever this time around. Not everyone understands what I'm trying to do, friends have come and gone, people owe me money that I still don't have and so on and so forth.


In my pursuit of happiness and success, many people have fallen to the wayside. Rev Run stated something along the lines of this, "On the journey to success, you will lose a few friends, but keep it moving." This keeps me going everyday. I don't think anyone understands how hard I work but ME and at the end of the day, I really don't care what anyone else thinks. If I don't like something, I will change it, but if you don't like something I'm doing, your bad *Kanye Shrug*

Committed to my Dream

This past Saturday I attended a going away party for my friend's fiancé. He is transitioning from being the head high school football coach to a college football coach. Saturday was a busy day for me and my friend texted me at 11am saying "Are you coming to the party?" I said to myself, "What party, she didn't tell me about a party." She responded and said that she forgot but the party was at 6pm. I said okay, I'll try to stop by but my day was already planned out. I had a youth workshop with the Makeva Harold Foundation, Inc. from 1pm-3pm then I was going to the movies to see Alice in Wonderland with my daughter and my friend and her daughter. After that, I just wanted to go home and sleep. I had no intentions on going to the party, I was just going to tell my friend I was tired, she told me at the last minute and I couldn't make it. *keep reading, I'm getting to the point* While were watching the movie, I thought to myself, I have to go to my friend's fiancé’s going away party. There's no doubt about it. This is the closest friend I have, I love her and she's always here for me through thick and thin. She's that friend that I know I can call on for anything....ANYTHING (this has been proven) I need to support her so I'm there! I called her as we were leaving the movies and I asked, "Are they having Publix cake?" Anyone that knows me knows that I LOVE me some Publix cake; it's the best, in my opinion. She said yes! Her family likes cake from Sam's club and I hate their cake! *no pun intended* "Okay I'm on my way." I called her back to find out if her fiancé’s friend was going to be at the party because she's tried to introduce us before and I turned him down :-( *shame on me because he's a great guy and he’s in Med School studying to be a doctor* don't judge me but I'm a hard working woman and I deserve a hard working, trustworthy, man. :-)

I arrive at the party at 6:30, they were still setting up so I stepped outside and made a few business calls and sent a few emails from my iPhone, of course, *this is what iPhone can do, lol* Okay, okay now to the point....party started around 7:45, you know black people don't ever start on time lol. There were about 30 people in attendance at the party, mostly everyone got up and gave their farewell speech. EVERYONE piggy backed off each other stating how he was committed to his dream and he never gave up. He comes from a family of lawyers and they all wanted him to be a lawyer. They talked about him taking the LSAT and having a great score; they knew he was going to law school and were very excited. It was his dream to always be a football coach, so that's what he worked towards and NEVER gave up. His family didn't agree with him becoming a football coach but supported him in all that he did. Being committed to his dream placed him exactly where he wanted to be, a college football coach! Way to go Alan! I'm proud of you too!!! :-)

After hearing all their farewells I said. “Hmm I'm glad I came and I think it was meant for me to hear this.” Lately, I've been feeling as though I need to make a career change, I'm 26 years old and I feel lost, what will I do, do I apply for jobs to work for someone other than myself, I don't want to work for anyone else, do I keep going in the same direction? These are the questions I've been asking myself. Just to hear everyone talk about how he was committed to his dream inspires me to continue to be committed to mine. Its tough trying to do that when your family doesn't believe it's going to happen. At least that's what I think. They don't even know what my organization does; they don't know what type of organization it is. I've given them brochures, showed them the website and they still don't know. Makes me feel as if they don't care or it’s not important to them. My grandma constantly tells me I should get a job. Am I not working now? I'm here in this office, my house or her house working AT LEAST 60 hours each week. I don't know, I guess she doesn't quite understand. I love my family, I just want them to support me in what I’m trying to accomplish because this is no easy task and I'll say it again, if it were easy, everyone would be doing it. I love a challenge!

Leaving the party, I felt that I received my confirmation to continue to be committed to my dream. Though my eyes are blurry right now and I can barely see where I’m going, I'm going to continue moving and praying my GPS(God) leads me in the direction I should go. That's called Faith and I have it, I just need to strengthen it.